As I was driving back to school tonight for my last semester at Cedarville, my head was spinning with thoughts of fall semester, fears of spring semester, and hopes for my future.
People keep asking me "You have one semester left! That's crazy! Are you ready?!"
I have spent three and a half years at Cedarville University.
I have met and formed relationships that I will have for the rest of my life.
I have learned how to become a teacher.
I have learned that I do not want to be a teacher.
I have learned how to fall more in love with Jesus.
I have discovered my passion.
I have been mentored and poured into by several women I trust and respect.
I have said many goodbyes but also several hellos.
And that is just to name a few.
The Lord has used my job as a resident assistant to teach me and bless me.
He has shown me my passion and my heart for mentoring and discipling.
I have learned that I do love to teach, just not formally.
Three years ago, I thought I would get to January and be more than excited to student teach but quite frankly, I do not want to do it.
I love my students and I love when I teach a lesson and can see the light bulb moment happen but I hate the entire process that it takes to be a teacher.
The Lord has really shown me through my job as a RA that I want to pursue ministry.
I have submitted my application to Dallas Theological Seminary to pursue my Masters in Christian Leadership and I have also applied to be a Resident Director at Emmanuel College in Georgia.
While my heart has many dreams, my head is very rational.
I'm learning (slowly) that it's okay to dream and pursue the desires of my heart.
After all, The Lord is the one who gave me my passions and my gifts and I want to honor and glorify Him with them.
I am in a season of unknown. If you know me, these are the seasons that I dread the most.
So, for everyone asking me the question "Are you ready?!"
Yes, I am ready, but I am terrified.
"Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase"
-Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.
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